Life at this pace.

Life has been busy, man. And by busy here doesn't mean busy with journals or assignments. That, I could still handle. I don't mean to boast, but my workload at the office is really eating up most part of my brain. I have to be responsible to two of my bosses. I have to be responsible to the Financial Manager. I have to be responsible to everyone, because now I'm dealing with people. Shoot! How time flies and now I actually really feel like an adult. Tomorrow I'm going to have another interview in KL. I'm supposed to prepare my portfolio and all that, but currently I just want to rest half an hour of today on Youtube-ing and blogging. I guess it isn't that much of bludging afterall?

Bestfriends have been seeking me all over the places, and they were never like this before. Sudden SMSes and e-mails kept on popping up. "Hey, sweetie, how are you? I MISS YOUUUU". "I know you're busy, that's why I don't ever bother to call u up on MSN." "Take care, prioritize your health darling!" "When will you be back home?" "When you read this e-mail, don't reply if you're really busy" and the saddest part.. "I'm currently on the downside of life..." I wish I could listen to them. I wish I could. Really... I even had to purposely spend my time to reply their messages when I was waiting for the train to come at KL Sentral (thanks ERL for providing wifi there!!!!)... I miss them. I miss theeeem.

I also damned miss my family back home but knowing the fact that everyone's doing just fine calms me down a lot :) I'll be home and lead that easy life, in February... RIght now I still feel like fighting for the future despite anything that gets in my way.

I miss college, too, anyway. But for sure I don't miss anyone from there (except a particular bestfriend ;)). I know I'm blunt on saying this, but that's just how bland I feel at the moment toward certain people at school. Everyone's wearing a mask. Everyone talks bad about each other at the back and still pretend like there's nothing when they are physically together. WHAT? Everyone says he's truthful on his blog, on his PM, on his whateverplatformtheycalltoexpresstheirfeeling, but I trust my heart better than my eyes. What I see and what I read won't go into my mind if it doesn't feel right. OMG, i'm such an emo all of a sudden!

But that's it. That's it. Have been getting a few good friends lately who could let me see through themselves and what friendship is really all about. That enlightens the part of me that always says my life is a solitary.

Anyway... Time for another battle... I better run off and quit this thing. LOL.

Wish me luck.