tired of asking, let's shut up and move on.

i'm tired of throwing the same question all over again. it gets no answer. it's just going to kill me over and over. i don't want to pretend as though there's nothing going on either. i know there's something going on. i just don't want to bother about it. it's not worth my time and feeling.

so they're cheating. what's next? so he's not fair. what's next? everyone carries brain inside his head, i don't need to chase for answers all the time. sometimes they must wake up and realize about what they've done.

i'm only 21. young and have so many things waiting to be pursued.

seems like i will have to remind this ceaselessly to myself: life is my own to handle. those around me are just players that get me to learn more stuffs in my life. those i love, i love them sincerely. those i hate, is already placed at the most corner side of my heart. i've tried not to hate people, but as human, i admit i can't avoid that.