quitter?

i have so much contradiction in me. my nature lets me be so.
am supposed to be happy today.
am supposed to.
am supposed to find something new.
am supposed to.
am supposed to breathe in new air and feel calmed, for only a day.
am supposed to.
am supposed to feel spoilt, and loved for too much.
am supposed to.
am supposed to eat something sumptous.
am supposed to.

but look at what shit i do have to face.

jeanette, quit.