"The Scream"

I guess there's really no way how I can describe my life at the moment. I'm too overwhelmed with works, I have so many new resolutions kept inside, I don't feel New Year-y at all, I have so many friends and no great friend at the same time, I live in a slum (seriously, no time to clean up my house, yet!), and oh oh oh... OH MY GOD. I need a break. Period.

But I guess I really don't have that pressure as much because I have my 16 fellas to share it with me. I feel really grateful for this training that I'm going through. Okay, screw all the workloads that they give us, haha, but I feel really grateful for the opportunity to learn how to become a better person from all the trainers and my peers in the class. There's no pressure to be opened up to the fellas, seriously, they always accept us as whoever we are and we live and befriend each other based on the principles of "honest feedback". When we don't like something, we directly blurt the F magic word and then continue living without leaving any scars. That's just that good for me. Everything is honesty and by that only we live. I can feel how strong the unity of our group is. *teary eyes* I'm kinda sad that it's going to end in one week time now.

Yesterday is the official last day of us at the training. Tomorrow onwards will be the day for rehearsal, presentations, wrapping up, graduation ceremony and all that. Since it's the last day of the training, we're told to give the honest feedback for our groups and discuss about it. Surprisingly my group earned the highest mark inside the class (so we got separated into 2 or 3 persons in a group for the final project stuffs) and unlike any other groups, the trainers didn't even bother to stop by our group to advise us on things anymore. Talk about how proud we are! Not that I'm faking anything, but it's just true for me that this is the best groupmate that I've ever had in my entire life. The three of us just work on honest principle, hardworking, no finger pointing, fun, fight, everything... ah.. it's just that good man. Anyway, it's just struck me that I've not had the two of them on my friendster list though ahha Hmmm.. thanks ernest and philip. you guys are the best!

Aaaahnyway, talk about today, I went to campus this morning to have the meeting for L'Oreal brandstorm. After we got done with the meeting, we discussed about job division with other group outside and then heading on to Streetmall to eat. I was being picked on today as my boyfriend is not here. Ernest decided to have today as "hari isengin jinet sedunia". -______-" today and tonight, every group will breathe the same air and sleep together. hauhauhaua! tomorrow is our rehearsal.. oh damn and we've not had anything just yet. fuckkkkk. in 40 mins i'll be hitting the street to drop pheebs at bangsar, and then accompany ernest to buy a new cellphone, and then go to puchong to buy my pup's food and pick up philip.

haaaaaaaaah.